Death Penalty

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One of the most controversial topics known to man is that of the death penalty? Are you for it? Or are you against it? Personally, I am all for it. I wouldn't go and throw it around as a sentence for just any crime. Only murder. And maybe rape. I've always believed in the phrase "an eye for an eye." The punishment should fit the crime. Always. No excuses. If someone is so cold that they can rape and/or murder someone, they don't deserve to be on this planet. I hate when people try and say that rehabilitation is the way to go. How do you "rehabilitate" someone who found it in them to kill someone. That sort of instinct doesn't just go away. Then there's those who believe in the sentence of life in prison. I don't think that's enough of a punishment for someone like that. What is prison? Some prisoners these days are living better than noncriminals. First off, they get shelter, while we have perfectly good people living in boxes on the street. They get food, while there are people out there who can't afford food. They're even given the opportunity to go outside and get some fresh air or watch television or workout. How is that fair? There are so many people in this world who would love to be as fortunate as some prisoners. Then there's always the possibility of escape. While many people believe prisoners only escape in movies, the reality is quite the opposite. Prisoners escape all the time. How do you escape a prison with guards all over, you may ask? It's rather simple to face an illness, get sent to the hospital, and escape from there. What happens when they get out? Do you think they would just try and be average? I don't think so. They would get right back on that murder swing. This is why I feel that those sort of disgusting people don't deserve to live anymore. Personally if it was up to me, I would torture the suckers. But the death penalty would suffice.

A mixture of emotions.

Today was a really crappy day overall. Work was horrible and it didn't help that a customer walked around the store tracking poop everywhere as it oozed down her leg. Like, really? The customers never cease to amaze me at my job. After work, I had to go to the doctor. I hate going to the doctor, especially alone. But I did anyway cause I didn't wanna ask Ray to come cause he would be late for work. Of course, I got out of there quick. So he actually could have gone with me. Just my luck.

I found out my bloodwork came back saying my thyroid is abnormal...again. Now I gotta go for another day of bloodwork to find out what it is that's wrong with it. This could be the reason I've gained 20 pounds since senior year. Anyways, I got home and asked Ray if he could come see me for a couple minutes before work since I really wasn't feeling well and seeing him always makes me feel better. He told me he couldn't cause he doesn't wanna use more gas than he already has to. Do you know what it feels like to have your boyfriend think you're a waste of gas? It was a huge slap in the face. And made me feel even worse.

On top of all that, my uncle Mike passed away 6 months ago today. I still can't believe he's gone. It seems like just yesterday he was doing Donald Duck and Elmo impersonations. RIP Uncle Mike. Love and miss you every day.

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Now enough of the depressing things. This weekend was absolutely amazing. Saturday I had a BBQ to which I invited about 20 friends. I'm not gunna lie. A majority of them didn't show up. Normally I would be depressed about that sort of thing, but you know what? It helped me to realize who my true friends are. And even though there were only a few people at the BBQ, they made it all worth while. I had an amazing time with my REAL friends. Ray and I also decided to play cupid and set up my friend Sandra with his brother (who's never even kissed a girl before). He was able to work up the courage to ask her for her number.

The next day, the four of us hung out ALL day and the night even ended with Ryan getting his first kiss. They've been talking ever since and things seem to be going very well. I'm so happy for the both of them you would think I was the one who just got their first kiss. Haha. I really hope everything continues moving forward with them. Well, fingers crossed...

Gotta love immature people.

So today started off pretty crappy. I woke up to facebook stuff on my phone. A former friend of mine, who I haven't heard from in about 2 months when she deleted me off facebook, decided her life is too boring so apparently wants to get involved in mine in an attempt to ruin it.

Long story short, we had some mutual friends and she got into a fight with them. Being stupid, I let her decision to not be their friend affect me. I chose her side of the fight and lost those friends. Then I lost her as a friend and she went back to being friends with them. I flipped out because she was the reason I wasn't friends with them. Then she dropped me (who was there for her always) like a sack of potatoes to go back to these people she was talking shit about for months.

So I explained to them everything that had gone on and apologized for being a follower and ignoring them just cause of her. Now she's commenting on my facebook and messaging me saying that I'm a hypocrit for being friends with them?! Really? She's the one who stopped talking to them and was talking shit about them, then decided she would be their friend again...but by all means I'm the hypocrit.

I messaged her back and told her she lost all rights to say anything to me the day she deleted me from facebook. We're in our 20s and she's acting like she's still in high school. She's pushing it to the point that I'm gunna have to block her from my facebook because she's harassing me. I'm sorry but at our age, I think that's a little ridiculous. Gotta love immature people.

Back to blogging...

No matter what goes on in life, writing is one thing I can always count on to let it all out. That's something I really need. I used to keep things bottled up and everyone knows that keeping your emotions in just isn't healthy. They all come out eventually! Sometimes in an uncontrollable burst. I know this from personal experience. I kept everything in and it was like continuously blowing air into a balloon. The last puff of air for me was some girl from work talking shit. Then??? Pop! I lashed out at work and let my emotions explode in a negative way. I ended up punching a hole in a door and got fired.

Ever since then, I try to handle my emotions in a healthy way. My personal favorite is to write. I just started keeping a diary/journal and I've decided to get back into blogging as well. Lately I've been feeling kinda, blah. I don't know why. I honestly have no reason to be upset or depressed. I have an amazing family and a perfect boyfriend. I just got a new car, I'm doing well in school and at work. But for some reason, I can't help but to feel a little off. It doesn't help that as of lately, I'm realizing who my true friends are. And let's just say...there aren't as many of them as I thought there were. Quite a few of my "friends" have been MIA. I text, facebook....no answer. True friends are supposed to be there in your time of need. It's not like I'm going through a hard time, but I could still use my friends! Is that too much to ask? Every text or comment that goes unanswered kills me inside. On the outside, I pretend it doesn't bother me...I pretend I'm okay. But how can someone be okay when all the people in their life they thought they could trust just let them down? At least I know I have my family, and my boyfriend. Those are the only people I know I could trust with my life. As for my "friends," who knows? Maybe it's time to make some new ones...